yeah, I'm utterly depressed. my online friend,(i dont have real friends btw) cant come online on anything for a while... like, for mounths. I'm worried about her, and I've just been falling apart without her. so everynight since two fridays ago, i've just cried myself to sleep. ._. and the first few days, i wasint eating anything. and boy, this whole thing really didint help my suicidal-ness. i've always been suicidal for as long as i can remember. and after i met her, i wasint having those thoughts anymore... well, until now. TT__TT